Confess secret

April 1, Friday
Today was a normal day until my swim coach announced our team had been selected to go to the states and compete with other schools on diving. Even though I’m in the swimming team, I never went on to the diving board because, I’m afraid of height! My fear of height started when I was young. When I was about 4 or 5 years old, I was playing at the playground and when I reached the top of the jungle gym suddenly my foot slipped and I went tumbling down to the ground like a monkey falling off a tree. Falling from the top of the jungle gym, which was about 6 ft, to the ground happened in less than a second. I was carried to the emergency room and had a big surgery for my age. Before, I was just a normal kid who liked to climb stuff and jump off of it, however, after going through all that, it makes my stomach sick and my head dizzy when I’m on something very high, and look down. Still, after that, it wasn’t a very difficult thing to live with when you are living on the ground and don’t have to go up high, but now it’s different. We have total 8 swimmers and if there is even one swimmer missing, then the whole team is disqualified, but I don’t want that to happen. However, I didn’t tell anyone because, who has acrophobia these days? Anyways, my day ended with a worry.

April 3, Sunday
We had a swim extra practice, to practice diving for the competition in the states. Fortunately, my turn to jump off the diving board didn’t come, no one’s did, because some of the students were late so we had to go around the pool 25 laps, and then the coach got a stomach ache and left us to practice swimming for an hour. So, practically all we did for 2 hours of practice was getting punished and free time. After the practice, I came home and sat in my room thinking of what I should do.
There are two choices; one is keep the secret and just dive into the water without thinking that I’m diving. The other one is to tell the truth that I am afraid of height and tell everyone that I’m sorry. Who knows, that the coach might see me with pity and forgive me for not telling her, and get a new swimmer?

April 4, Monday
I guess the first choice won’t work. I was on the diving board today and I saw the waters shaking like waves and was about to swallow me! I felt like I was about to throw up. I wanted to burst out of that place immediately. However, I calmed myself and told coach that I had a nose bleed and can’t go in water today. She told me to go home early and show up to the next practice earlier to start on my diving. What should I do? I really want to tell everything and just get rid of it!

April 7, Thursday
I didn’t go to practice since the day I went on the diving board. I told coach that I was sick and couldn’t go to practice. I’m going to tell that I can’t go tomorrow too. I really do not want to go on the diving boards. I should really do something to this situation or else I might let my teammates disqualified and get myself humiliated, too.

April 9, Saturday
I thought about it a lot yesterday night in my bed, and finally made a hard decision. So I went to the practice today and asked coach if she could have few words with me. I went into the office and hardly began to tell her about my fear in height, however that I don’t want the team to lose in the state competition. First, I thought I was going to be yelled at for keeping it a secret. However, coach was smiling with an understanding face and said “Once, I was acrophobia and had to dive, so I told everyone I couldn’t and after the competition ended, I started, little by little, practicing to get over it. Look at me now! Good as new!” I was so relieved when she told me that, and it wasn’t late to practice getting over my acrophobia. She also told me she already had an eye on me. So starting from tomorrow, first, I’m going to try my best to not let my teammates disqualified because of me. Second, get over my fear in height and become the “me” who likes to climb and fall, and stand up again!

Poetry project

Ghazal

When I was alone, I felt loneliness.

But now I feel happiness.

You were the one who saved me from the dark.

And made also my life feel happiness

The world looks so beautiful.

It is filled with joy. Can you feel happiness?

Like the flowers bloom in May, you are my flower.

The one that is sensitive, and lovely, that need to feel happiness.

My heart started bounce after meeting you.

And now it’s broken, it can only feel happiness

Elegy

How calmly you told the end of our flame

Walking away, not even glancing back at me

Though you left me, I don’t give you the blame

That is why I feel more irritated, you see?

I could hear nothing, see nothing at all

Like I am in a dark room with no light to shine

A deep, creepy dungeon with black tall walls

Now there is not even a streak of light of mine

No difference in life or death now, you know?

The reason I lived was because you were with me

Since it’s gone, I only feel the sorrow

What should I do to make you comeback, bend my knee?

Villanelle

Never forget the first time we met

Nothing was different from other classmates

But, my senses tingled, yours didn’t yet

You were my partner, everything was set

All meant to be, before it was too late

Never forget the first time we met

I threw a ball, you picked it next to a net

The first sight of you opened the gate

of you, tingled my senses but not yours yet

It was a rainy day, soggy and wet

One umbrella, for you and me, what a soul mate!

Never ever forget the first time we met

I ran towards you, fast, like a jet

To tell you my feelings about you, wait,

I think my senses tingled but not you, yet

Finally the exciting game was set

And you walked away saying just like fate

Just never forget the first time we met

The senses tingle in me still, but not you yet

ode

On a normal day, I walked down the street

Just wandering for the “fun of the day”

There you were, standing on the hot concrete

So beautiful like the flowers in May!

I couldn’t control my body, my feet

You had the smile that made my heart beat

You made my face turn red, like an apple

There was no such thing that made my world heat

Or so dreamy like the color purple

You organized my life plan nice and neat

I felt and thought of all this as a “we”

Walking towards you step by step, closer

There were ordinary days behind me

However, asked you to be my leader

The leader who will lead me to happy

Free verse

Sitting side by side

With a feathery warm breeze on the left

And a deep warm breath on the right

Doing nothing with you

On one warm sunny day

Leaning against you listening to music

This is what’s called peace

As the glittering sun sets, the shining stars start to wake up

And here I am with you

Saying hello to the stars and giving them names

Laughing together

Having the comfortable happiness of my life

With you

Blank verse

From the time, I start thinking about you

You do not move or go out of my mind

I start to think about the beginning

Your are the one, who saved me from darkness

The one who rescued me from misery

From that point, light started to shine on me

I could feel that our love story began

From then, everything looked so beautiful

Like the memories we made together

And the love songs we sang to each other

The beat of my heart never calms down now

We have some memories about bad times

When you told me to get a whole new life

A whole new life without you by my side

But as time told us, we are meant to be

Because of the hard time we had before

It made us believe stronger in our love

Now we trust each other more than before

There is nothing that can separate us

Nothing in the world. Not even the death

Ballad

When I was young I never knew

The person that I’ll love would be you!

Every day I’ll say “I’m going to marry a prince!”

And mom would say “When you grow old enough to get yourself rinsed”

You are in front of me, but not the person in my imagination

However, a charming one, who took over the situation

When I was young I never knew

The person that I’ll love would be you!

The first sight of you was a normal man

With a hotdog in one hand

But the miracle of love made me fall in ‘love at first sight’

And from then and now, and on, you will be my light

When I was young I never knew

The person that I’ll love would be you!

You wait every day to see my face

That’s why I became a late running ace

Not only had you made me runner

You have made me a dreamer

When I was young I never knew

The person that I’ll love would be you!

I’ll be the person who is stronger than a tree

Who has a heart, larger than a sea

The person who will never let you cry

Trust me. That will be me, see me in the eye

Haiku

Very nervous now

Thinking what to say to you

That’s it! I love you

All I want to say

There is nothing in the world

That can replace you

Nevertheless, for

I have brought you a gift, here

It is called love, dear

Sonnet

How do I explain what I feel about you, as an admirer?

My eyes only vision you with the bell sounds heard

My small heart starts to pump harder like a shocked coward

When listening to your voice, you are like an enchanter

The sweet scent of you makes me dizzy, like a rollercoaster

Feeling free when I’m with you, like a flying bird

When seeing the smiles on you, feels like I’ve got the whole world

Cheeks turn so red, like a red rose in bloomer

Now you can trust me by heart, with dependence

There I said, what I feel for you, my dear

Let the love freely fly to the farthest distance

There is nothing you have to think about with fear

My feelings will never change for the rest of my existence

No, it will not change even when death is near

Metaphors

Loneliness
   -Nothing near, nothing far, not even a single ant near by.
Largeness
   -Started to measure the space, but the ruler ended first.
Jubilance
   -Everyones hands up in the air waving back and forth while the home-run ball flies clearly in the sky.
Repugnance
   -Moving back and forth, up and down, getting the inside out.
Clarity
   -Only this or that, nothing such as regular.
Anger
   -Face getting red, fists held tight, 10seconds before the blast.
Confusion
   -Which way to go?
Excitement
   -A new, young bird getting ready for his first flight up into the endless sky.
Contentment
   -Graduated a good college, has a stable job, a loving family. What more?
Optimism
   -Even though it snowed and got stuck in the house, still, we have plenty of woods to burn.

Jumble Story

          March 5, an early spring. The celebration party at the school is in 3 days. My duty at this party is not only to celebrate and have fun, but also to take pictures for the yearbook. Before I talk about the celebration party, I want to tell you about myself. My name is Stella, a senior at Springville High. I started to take pictures around the school campus when I was a freshman. When taking pictures of a person or a situation, I feel tingles of excitement going through my veins. Recently, however, I realized that photography doesn’t help me advance in my academic career; this thought began to take serious weight in my decisions since in September, I’m going off to college. I started to get worried with what I’m going to do with my life. My parents have expectations on me to have a life time job that could pay me a fixed income. After much contemplation, I chose the celebration party to be the last place to take pictures as a photographer.

The celebration party is about us, seniors, to have fun and enjoy the last of high school and to make memories of high school. Announcing the student of the year and giving out awards to the sports teams and others.

           Finally arrived! A brand new black DSLR camera 7000! With this, it will be the greatest pictures ever taken at the celebration party.

           The last day with my camera. I stared at the camera for 5 minutes, then said goodbye. The celebration party starts at 7:00 p.m. so I had to get ready. Even though I’m taking pictures for almost the whole time, I still had my new blue sparkling dress that will make me as beautiful as the girls in my pictures. I rode the limousine to the party, and there I took the first photo, seniors running across the room and jumping into the warm pool. What a jump! Then I took photos of the stage members, the performance etc. Finally the award ceremony began. The student president took the first award, then the committee members, and almost all the seniors. I also received one and gave the camera to my friend to take picture for 3 minutes, while I’m getting my award. Next, pictures with the principal and teachers that helped us for the year and the final picture with everyone at the celebration party.

           After the party, I came home and uploaded the photos and started to pick the ones that are suitable for the yearbook. As I was picking, I couldn’t help smiling, the pictures were so happy and full of joy. Everyone was having fun with their friends and the teachers. My favorite picture was the one with a guy jumping into the pool flipping and everyone shouting in the back. The picture looked so lively; it made my brain remember the exact heat from the party. At that moment, I realized that it is not any fixed payment that makes me happy, but it is photography that enlivens my life. Now I finally understood what I should do and what I want to do. Even though it might have a rough start, it will shine one day. So the next day I told my parents about being a photographer, and it took only an hour and a half to move their mind. And now I’m still taking pictures at the school and majoring in photography, also got into a college with a fine system with art. So now, all I got to do is to keep taking pictures that make my heart pound like an engine of a train.

Description-Cookies

When I came home from school, there were cookies in the oven, making sweet smells that got me alredy excited to eat. The cookies looked good with the dark brown chocolate chips on it. After few minutes, the cookies were out, and on the kitchen table for me. When I lifted one up, the smell of sweetness came to my nose strongly, also the touch was so soft like a powder. One bit got me dizzy. With the crunchy chocolate chips on the outside, and the sugary, sweet chocolate taste in the inside, it was such a fine cookie. I will never forget those cookies.

6 Word Story

Self portrait valued greater than himself.

6 Word Story

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